The key to abuse,rape,murder is to make it look like the victim deserved what they got.
The kid was bad,deserved to be starved and tortured. She was asking for rape because she dressed sexy. The guy you killed had it coming.
I am no stranger to physical,sexual, emotional, and economic abuse. i had two third degree burns before the age of two.
All along the way i was told it was my fault. My mother would scream at me for 2 hours telling me i am worthless, i have ruined everything. If i dared open my mouth and say "what did i do wrong" or if i pointed out that something she was accusing me of was not in any way true,i was told "there you go, making more trouble".
I was not allowed to have anything, all was taken from me. A neighbor felt sorry for me and gave me a stuffed toy with a music box built in. Within a week that was taken from me and trashed likely in a dumpster far from home where i couldn't retrieve it..
I started to learn to read at 3 by looking at comic books. My brother was in 1st grade having trouble. To spare his feelings all books were removed from the house. At the baby-sitters i was told that by orders of my mother i was not allowed to see any books. Mom told me that she would not let me go to school. I missed kindergarten. It was my fault for being too smart.
Mom found out that to keep me from school would be seen as abuse. Two weeks before first grade she told me that she decided to let me go to school.
Within two months, the teachers said that i was far beyond the other students, and should advance to second grade. My mother said that it would hurt my brother's feelings, and refused to sign the papers.
I always had to wear clothes that were two sizes too small. I could not get on the bus because my pants were so tight i could lift my leg.The other parents shamed my mother into buying me a new pair of pants. As we were leaving the house my brother said he wanted my fruit loop. My mother blocked the door. i begged them to leave me alone, but my much larger brother grabbed my belt loop and swung me around in circles until the loop tore and i slammed hard into a wall and collapsed to the floor. My new pants now destroyed, my mother said "OK, now we can go". My joy of finally having something decent to wear made me deserve whatever hate was to be dished out.
I didn't get to eat supper, she cooked for her and my brother only after i was in bed asleep. I remember waking up one time, smelling the food. I went to the kitchen and saw them eating. She gave me a plate. i remember talking for months about how we should do that again, how good it felt for me to actually go to bed with food in my stomache.
I deserved to be starved for the trouble i was, severe asthma made me go to the hospital many times as a child; I was a big problem.
In second grade i stepped in a puddle and a teacher attacked me, hitting me with a board. As she beat me, i saw a crowd circle around. I passed out when she broke my tail-bone. When i woke everyone had merely walked away except one kid who eventually helped me get back on my feet. The concensus was i deserved to be beaten.
I couldn't tell my mother about the beating. She would have further abused me, using the excuse that i deserve what i got.
Fast forward 50 years. I design a pinball designed to work with a mame program which is recommended to be installed on the c drive. For anyone who installed it on the c drive it is bug-free. I made the mistake of saying that it was bug free in the description, as those who installed the mame in different folders had problems. This is only because of several advanced features, like reading and writing high scores. Other tables don't do that, so it doesn't matter where you install the mame.
My fault again, i ruined everything. From VPforum i get an onslaught of abuse, mocking, bullying, posting my picture with insults. No doubt from abusers who believe i deserve to be shit on and maybe beaten if you can locate me.
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